a steady current

the unbroken flow of thought and awareness of the awakened mind an engaged narration capturing the spectrum of a character's mental process sense perceptions mingle with thoughts memories experiences feelings and random associations incessant mindless chatter

Monday, June 26, 2006

Resentment

It slides down my throat
like micro waved razor blades,
in slow shallow swallows,
downing my own worth,
like pickled eggs.

I wish I could kidnap you,
steal you back to the ages
when my strengths roamed the earth,
but this is impossibility,
and this knowledge drops behind my eyes
like crows landing,
and strip my revenge fantasies,
until they're dried carcasses called maturity.



Chumahan

Monday, February 27, 2006

Office Haiku 02.24.06

02.24.06

Haze is a murmur,
Buildings are written in space,
The sun on my desk.





Chumahan

Tuesday, October 04, 2005

singing

singing



wake up honey, wake up,
there’s singing in the night,
don’t go back to sleep,
don’t turn on the light,

just listen to them close,
not from hell and not from heaven,
they come from god only knows,
but they’re here now and listen,

the blood-soaked boats sing,
the tunnels in the granite mountains sing,
the dinner dancing in the microwave sings,
from under the bottom of the ocean comes singing,

this voice is from a son who hates his mother’s poverty,
and this one ricochets off the iron trunks of skyscrapers,
and this one came from a cheerless cigarette break,
and this one came from sagging tit of a woman in sales,
and this one was a whimper from a grandfather whose heart turned into an ash tray,

the tidal wave of twenty-four-hour signs sing,
the missing money from a register sings,
the fog of school sings,
this is the thunder of voices dying to be american,

this is the voice of a man’s short-lived lies,
this is the anguish of a child who’s prayers weren’t answered by god,
and this one’s a doctor delivering one more baby one more time,
this is a little girl with frosting on her nose,

singing from the trains, from the corners, from what used to be real boardwalks,
singing for their lovers untrue,
singing for someone’s forgiveness,
singing for an extra dollar an hour,
singing for the years to go by quicker,

the songs are like wet cement churning in a barrel,
like the smell of a hundred-year old dock,
like a sliver aching in your palm,
like a rusted bucket with bullet holes,

like tiny rivers across the moon,
sailing through the starry sky,
like an angel's organ,
spreading her notes far and wide,

we should stay up the whole night,
too bad we have to sleep,
i’ll never shut my eyes again,
if they dry out, i’ll just have to weep.




Chumahan

Monday, September 26, 2005

song of the father

song of the father


come home to my home son,
here is what i provide,
carve me up,
and chew what i am inside.

because of the way i live,
i have no woman to give,
they were kept away,
by things beneath my mind,
they carry away my good intentions,
like stolen babies in the night,
i watch them disappear,
by the moth-ridden porch light.

learn to cook for yourself
because a boy eats to become a man,
learn the books by yourself,
because a boy needs to live in the streets of men,
learn the beatings by yourself
because violence is the life of men,
learn to sew a button,
because there is no woman.

ask me your questions
and i’ll tell you what i know,
watch my life,
and i’ll tell you what i know,
listen to my silence,
and i’ll tell you what i know,
say goodbye to this home,
and you’ll know what i know.

this hard sink is my heart,
these dirty plates are my feelings,
earn your keep with this soapy water,
and scrub until you see your face.



Chumahan

Friday, July 22, 2005

threee short ones

three short ones

i will watch her not look at me,
and when she turns her head,
my eyes will fly off
like two pheasants.

she is the louisianna night
and my thoughts are fireflies
and the moments
are like a maple
still growing
even when the night is gone.

the husband is too wise to talk
about his thoughts
which don’t belong to him
but to a woman he saw once.


chumahan